Poet Idiot

The edge of life was fading fast
Amidst approaching darkness vast
So long pain’s net on me was cast
My troubled past, my troubled past…

I watched it come, but didn’t move
What did I think I had to prove?
As friends and family behooved
I was unmoved, I was unmoved…

The darkness overtook my soul
Its blackened hue was now total
As in the weight of all I rolled
It took a toll, it took a toll…

But then a glimmer I espied
And in my soul I gave a cry
So long in pain, hope I’d denied
Until that night, until that night…

Hope’s glimmer grew in night of day
And darkened shadows slipped away
No more the light could they escape
They had to fade, they had to fade…

And now the dark is waning fast
Amidst Hope’s approaching light vast
No more pain’s net on me is cast
That’s in the past, it’s in the past!

All senses seem to slowly drain
The beast within my head is slain
And as I sing my sad refrain
It dulls the pain, it dulls the pain

The ache inside now fades away
An empty pit now takes its place
As in this pit I pass the day
Content to stay, content to stay

For from this pit I cannot crawl
I cannot seem to scale the walls
And when I try, I simply fall
Oh, damn it all! Just damn it all!

And so, for now right here I sit
Content to dwell within my pit
After all – I created it
So here I sit, so here I sit…

And pass the time in shadowed hue
And dream so endlessly of you
There’s nothing more for me to do
Than dream of you, than dream of you

An angel spoke to me today
But what she said I cannot say
Though my mind's eye strives to replay
It slips away, it slips away...

I know she came into my room
And lifted me from pain and gloom
To see the beauty of the moon
But gone too soon, but gone too soon...

Her words - they flowed like honey spun
The very rays of the lingering sun
And when the whole affair was done
I was at one, I was at one…

An angel spoke to me today
And what she taught I still replay
For all the blacks and browns and grays
Have gone away, have gone away.